I have a serious problem

I'm not sure what is worse... my complete disregard for my aparently spending ban or my obsession with the opposite sex.

Cute boy at work still interests me. Aidan and I had a 'share-all' intimite moment on Sunday night that really scares me. I still want to have sex with RAAF boy.

Ok so my life is complex.... well really not that complex. Also while I'm obsessing over boys I'm not working on the assignment that's due at 4pm today that I have started... researching... just. Also getting a crush on boy in my class. Hmmm....

I think I'm being affected by Spring. Let's blame the seasons shall we...

*The weather is gorgeous so I hate being cooped up inside.
*I feel really good about myself for the first time in a really long time.
*I just want to have fun.
*My thoughts are really scattered. I can't focus on any given task.
*I haven't been this boy crazy since I was about 14.
*My taken or hung-up-on-their-ex friends are not helping me.
*Vogue girls better get smashed with me Friday cos I took the day off.

Ok that was more my thoughts in point form.

I really want a guy in my life who I'm sexually attracted to but who also likes to chat with me. I like being with a guy who listens to my incessant chatter and thinks its cute - not stares at me like I'm crazy a la RAAF boy. (Yes I still hate using his name.) I want a guy who I can talk to about Buffy and books and sexual politics but who will also understand if I want to go out with my girls and get completely fucked up. I want a guy who'll fuck me like I'm a naughty girl.

*sigh*